Why title this one "faith and fingerprints?"
The answer is simple. It's what a lot of my life is about. I am a wife, I'm raising children, and I'm doing my absolute best to be a good Christian woman.
Finger painting is messy, life is messy. That mess can cover the path towards salvation. It happens to the best of us, whether it takes us an hour to clear the mess, a day, weeks, months, or years, the important thing is to get going back on that path at some point.
My boys are growing up so fast! Timmy is almost 4 and Billy is almost 2.
If I'm being honest, and looking back on my last post, I am not living up to the words I posted about patience and understanding. If anything, my patience has thinned since then. I'm definitely a mom that needs improvement. I go to bed every night telling myself I'm going to use kinder words the next day, and I always fail. Having one toddler was tough, having two toddlers is more difficult than I ever could have imagined before getting to this point.
There is this great website. www.openbible.info I read my bible almost daily, but sometimes, when something is really bothering me, and I need a quick answer to my question about how to handle it, I use this tool. The internet is great isn't it?
"Good sense makes one slow to anger, and it is his glory to overlook an offense." Proverbs 19:11
I just learned this one tonight. I am grateful for scripture, it gives me a great guideline to life and the way it should be lived in order to have peace and happiness. I am unhappy with myself when I am angry with my boys. They don't deserve my harsh words or raised voice. It also makes anger an issue for them.
"A soft answer turns away wrath, but harsh words stir up anger." Proverbs 15:1
How true this is. When I get angry, it doesn't make the boys obedient and kind. They yell back at me, or fight with each other. This only frustrates me farther, and it becomes a cycle. It needs to start with me, I need to calm my mind and my heart. I am hoping putting my thoughts down like this gives me clarity. It is my hope that my honesty helps even one other mom out there realize she isn't alone when she has her moments of anger and frustration towards her kids, and I am a mom you can be honest with about it. I make no judgments here. In fact, if you are looking for a great book to read that is so unbelievably relatable for Moms like me I can recommend one. I haven't finished reading it yet but I was in tears after the first couple of pages. You can find it on amazon.com
I realize this post has been a little scattered, much like the thoughts in my head. Bear with me. If I can commit to posting more often perhaps I can be more focused :)
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